On Overcoming | Curving Reluctance & Negativity

#JournalingJuly - July 25th

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I fell short on responsibilities I had lined up for today.

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Waking up disgruntled from that realization, I started to berate myself. I felt the same frequencies of disappointment, depression, anxiety & unrest that I have experienced before & with which I have come to be familiar.

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I knew that this was not what I wanted for my day. I knew it was a fruitless effort to regret something that is now in the past & out of my control. I desired to return to a state of peace.

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As if a prophecy, I noticed all too quickly that I was falling victim to “the crevices of my mind”, a metaphor I used in yesterday’s journaling.

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I had been all too comfortable letting myself flow back to emotions & states of being that I just simply did not & do not want. This perplexed me.

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So I just decided to get out of my mind and allow the day to unfold as if nothing ever went wrong. To not allow the mishap of my first half of the day, to effect my efficacy in the second half of my day. This was a simple desire. This was a reasonable choice to make.

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Often, as reasonable as a choice may be, sometimes we may find ourselves reluctant to make that choice. Sometimes we fall victim to listening to the self-berating inner voice that tries to convince us that we’re not worthy of our happiness or peace.

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I realized that it’s not uncommon for one to convince oneself to accept suffering for the sake of taking home a lesson, or for proving something arbitrary to oneself, or to please another.

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It’s all a voluntary pitfall into negative feelings, & one we could freely walk out of whenever we were ready.

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To prove this to myself, I simply decided to not accept the version of myself today that would allow for those negative thoughts to linger. Sure enough, they dissipated & I was able to not only excel at all the tasks I had left to take care of for the day, but I was able to enjoy myself while doing so.

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I got to interview WLPWR from BNDWTH Atlanta. I got to network with really amazing people at the Blockchain Chamber of Commerce event at the Creative Media Industries Institute (CMII), the founders that developed The Labz & Gramyre Media, amongst other amazing individuals.

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I feel like I always say it, but it’s important to get out of your way. I understand, it’s not all the time that one has the reservoirs of will power stored up to confront themselves & the directions the mind is heading in, but it’s important to be able to control the flow of your thoughts whenever necessary.

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Don’t just simply accept everyone else’s techniques at face value. Find what works for you. Maybe you don’t like meditation, so you take a walk in the park. Maybe you don’t like yoga, but you love to run, climb, or box. Maybe you don’t like dealing with people often, so you only deal with them when you do.

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Whatever makes sense for you to remain at the helm of your mind, holding the reins to your thoughts & guiding your intentions according to your highest ideals of what you deem valuable, then that’s all that matters. Do your best. I believe in you. You’ve got this.

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All the Best,
Sean aka Mr. Wildenfree
#LiveLifeWell

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