On Consistency | Falling Short & Recovering

#JournalingJuly - July 13th

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The irony of having written such a well thought out & impromptu post about being consistent & pushing through the struggles with keeping up with a daily challenge... only to have completely & obliviously let one of those days just glide on by.

It had not even really given me much pause that I had missed July 12. I’m not even completely sure why. The day just slid right on passed me, with my mind preoccupied on one thing or another.

Today, I recognized that lack of execution & almost let it get to me. Today was the deliberate contemplations, suggesting to myself — ah I already missed yesterday, I might as well go ahead & just skip today so I can be prepared for tomorrow’s performance, & I will simply catch back up at the beginning of the week.

I almost allowed myself to do just that too. Convincing myself that I’ll simply right an additional 500 words for each day I missed, in order to make up for it.

Yet, the key to what I was expressing before in my previous blog post is this: It’s not about how many words you write, songs you make, projects you complete, etc. It’s about how often you committed yourself to the task. It’s about setting aside the time & visualizing the activity in which you commit to developing.

A nice reflection for this though, is to recognize in what ways the given activity you are seeking to perform benefits you. While I have no doubt this free-flowing writing style really helps me to reduce the friction between thinking about writing & actually writing, I recognize that a more specific writing prompt that is built upon with each day could be a more meaningful catalyst for intentional growth. It’s a deliberate effort in a defined direction, which would radically force me to double down & think more closely about the message I am seeking to convey.

Alas, while I do plan to embark upon this deliberate writing journey at some point in the near enough future — for now, it is just a keen insight that I know to observe carefully & honor all of the positive benefits of this freeform writing as I finish out this month. This will allow me to get all of the seemingly aimless ruminations out of the way, & help to refine my writing style by helping me to identify the common thread amongst all of my writings.

In a way, there was indeed a similar benefit that came to fruition when I completed my “February Flows” project. It was a cathartic experience, & I was overjoyed to be able to explore my musical creative process without feeling as if I had boundaries (other than the time of course).

When I completed the project, I felt as if I came out the other side something far beyond what I was originally, when I first went into it.

It is my hopes that this writing journey not only aids me in my pursuits of becoming a better writer, but transforms my nuanced metaphors & reaches in the dark, into clarity-packing, potent perceptions that help to inspire others in their many experiences of life.

All the Best,

Sean aka Mr. Wildenfree

#LiveLifeWell

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